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[Jan. 3rd, 2006|02:57 pm] |
so.. im 20 now.
here are some things you need to know.
im very sick, and sleep all the time.
im in love with all my friends.
they make me happy and laugh.
i like a boy.
&&he likes me back.
my cousin is amazing.
ron weasley's look-a-like checked me out the other day.
degrassi is addictive.
more photos coming soon.
now im hanging out with
drrrrrrrrrk & VTarrah2005.
(she is so dated now)
im excited.
i had an amazing birthdday so far
besides being very sick.
i love my family.
my father and mum are too awesome.
my dad is having his tumor removed on jan 9th.
so that is scary, that is also AJ for the backstreet boys b irthday.
oh holy geez.
in conclusion.
im content with life. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 2nd, 2006|12:00 pm] |
do you know what i hate more than anything.
the fact that im still so sick
the fact that for maybe ten minutes a day i feel better
and then a crash and forget where i am and what im doing
in a matter of seconds im passed out.
my back, legs and arms and constantly in pain.
and i try so hard not to sleep more than 8 hours
but i keep falling asleep constantly.
i hate this. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 1st, 2006|08:09 pm] |
thugs n' gangsters
im 20 in 28 hours.
suuuuup!? |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 30th, 2005|07:10 pm] |
dinosaur numba two::im on a roll. |
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[Dec. 30th, 2005|02:58 pm] |
i gots me some talents. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 28th, 2005|10:35 pm] |
today was horrible.
after i left tarahs, i drove towards dierdre's work
to see her and drop off her christmas gift.
i remember leaving tarahs.
i remember driving down 26.
getting on the interstate
and i remember passing the exit signs for delafield.
after that things get so blurry.
all i can remember is then
- passing signs for beliot.
- turning my car around.
- driving towards milwaukee.
- making my way to west allis. near my old apartment.
- next thing i was on 75th street here in kenosha.
every place i drove i kept looking around,
i couldnt remember where i was or where i was going.
when i got home.. and inside, my mum said i was burning up.
and i passed out on the couch.
later i worked it out.
i was driving for almost 4 hours.
a drive which should have taken me 2 at the most.
later i went to the doctors.
they said i need to rest for the entire week and this weekend
and if i am still sleeping 16+ hours a day.
go to the ER.
im sorry to tarah and derek for being so lame last night
and sleeping the whole time. and for not being able to hang out tonight.
and im very sorry to dierdre for not getting to see her.
i feel so so so bad about it. i really do.
im so sorry. |
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[Dec. 28th, 2005|10:21 am] |
ive offically missed the past four days of work.
im so sick, ive been sleeping 18+ hours a day.
and every part of my body aches.
my eye hurts too.
blah. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 27th, 2005|05:30 pm] |
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derek and tarah are sexing up the other room |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 25th, 2005|09:32 am] |
the wall has fallen!!
the wall is gone!!
our safe modest country is now plauged!!
WHAT WILL BECOME OF OUR PEACEFUL GERMANY?!?!
Chreistmas is fun. and apperantly spelled with an e now. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 24th, 2005|08:00 pm] |
merry christmas and junk.
i hope you all are happy.
and um... im sick, lame!! |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 23rd, 2005|10:17 pm] |
SOMEONE THOUGHT I LOOKED LIKE KELLY OSBOURNE TODAY
AND ANOTHER LADY SAID I HAD AMAZING EYES AND MAKEUP
AND SAID THAT SHE WISHED SHE COULD HAVE MAKEUP LIKE THAT
BUT IT WOULD ONLY LOOK GOOD ON BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE.
BLAH, IT MADE ME SMILE.
I GOT SHOPPING DONE.
IM GOING TO GET DEREK AND TARGET GIFT CARD
WITH LIKE 3 CENTS ON IT.
TO PISS HIM OFF.
OR LIKE A DOLLAR.
HAHAHAHAHHAA.
WOW. IM A JERK.
I HAVE TO WORK TOMARROW AT 7 AM TO 2:30 PM
LAME.
BUT I GOT MY BIRTHDAY OFF.
STILL NO LUCK ON TARAH HEADS BIRTHDAY
SO IM GOING TO CALL IN SICK
FUCK THEM
TARAH = MORE IMPORTANT.
HM, LETS SEE WHAT ELSE.
ASDJFKLASHFLDKAGHADSLKFHDAKLGHASKLF.
I DONT KNOW.
OH!!! WHO WANTS TO WATCH THE DEGRASSI MARATHON WITH ME NEXT WEEKEND.
IM GOING TO CALL IN SICK FOR IT.
CAUSE I FRIGGEN LOVE THAT SHOW.
I SAW THE FIRST EPISODE I EVER SAW TONIGHT.
IT WAS LIKE MEMORY LANE.
I LOVED IT.
WELL.. AKGHDAKLFUH!
MERRY CHRISTMAS AND JUNK.. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 23rd, 2005|12:03 am] |
so today some random boy went
through my lane and
he looked like sonny moore.
HAHAHAA
my day was boring. |
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[Dec. 21st, 2005|10:48 pm] |
lets line my walls with your dreams
that we paint on paper
and tell to children as they map out tomarrow
we will tell the fish the secrets of escaping the ocean
and eat candy under a tree filled with stars. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 21st, 2005|10:31 pm] |
I've got all these memories that I cannot believe in
Cause I don't know where I've been all these years |
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[Dec. 19th, 2005|03:33 pm] |
im going to illinois for the next three days.
call me if you need me.
i wont be on the computer untill wednesday! |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 19th, 2005|12:23 am] |
sup THREE DAYS OFF.. im soo friggen excited.
but what should i do? |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 16th, 2005|09:45 pm] |
so i went to this site
http://www.myheritage.com/
and i put in a photo from
game night at dereks
to see which famous people
everyone looked like.
the results were more than amusing
none of their faces look like anyone famous..
but RYANS shoulder..
( oh, saint teresa.. ) |
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[Dec. 16th, 2005|03:50 pm] |
afdfjdkaghdkflkdaslgjdsf.
im tired. goodnight.
i have to work at 8am - 4pm tomarrow.
basldfkhasl! |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 15th, 2005|08:14 pm] |
dear lady who couldnt wait for me to pullout of my parking space.
and decided to drive around my car in the other lane...
I HIT YOUR FRIGGEN CAR!
bitch, then you had the nerve to yell at me.
and blame me e tfor NO DAMAGE TO YOUR FUCKING CAR.
AND seriously THANKS for making me cry in the carpark of MY WORK.
you should get hit by a car. or choke on food.
i feel like shit today. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 12th, 2005|05:33 pm] |
people have asked what i want for christmas
and ive thought alot about that
and honestly i cant think of anything really
i want to be able to spend more time with people
and a violin... and i want to know if this boy likes me.
but besides that. i dont know, i dont want anything..
what does everyone else want for christmas? |
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[Dec. 11th, 2005|04:56 pm] |
[edit - im sorry to DIERDRE I wish we could have hung out today,
I just over slept and then had to drive back to kenosha, IM SO SORRY!!
last night was ( amazing ) SERIOUSLY!
I dont know how else to describe it.
I met amazing people, played board games.
was called a douche alot.
called derek a douche alot.
punch tarahs boob.
marriedcivil unionized(?) amber.
and beat up derek.
OHH AND ATE ALOT AND WATCHED DEGRASSI!
AND RAN AROUND PICK N SAVE AT 4:30am.
I didnt get to sleep untill 6am..
I loved it. |
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[Dec. 8th, 2005|12:37 pm] |
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....i got a job at target. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 7th, 2005|11:49 am] |
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i have a job interview tomarrow at 9:30am at target. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 6th, 2005|09:36 pm] |
stephen king makes me giddy
i spent today remodling my room, it still looks shitty
but a high class shitty.
xo |
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[Dec. 5th, 2005|02:01 pm] |
I went shopping with my mum,
and then headed to tarahs...
and then, then..
EMERY PLAYED FOR US.
Yes, we (The most beautiful Dierdre and Myself)
went to Emery/From Autumn To Ashes show last night.
(AKA ALY's WELCOME HOME SHOW)
It was pretty amazing, I enjoyed, We talked alot..
Dierdres phone was destroyed/lost in the pit.
and we searched but only found the battery.
Also so random guy yelled in my ear alot, Random
people hugged us, and asked us about dinosaur pants/myspace.
AH, and the car ride home was amazing. OH I LOVE DIERDRE.
I also saw Melissa and Jared,
I wish I would have been able to talk more,
but there will be other times. IM SURE..
Then I went to see Monika and Sarah,
We hung out and talked and such.
and planned on hanging out soon.
ah, then me and Tarah hung out, and I love her.
Last night was wonderful, I will write more later,
but now I have to take my mum to work.
( hellophotos ) |
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[Dec. 4th, 2005|01:40 am] |
i sat in the bath tub.
humming that same old song.
and then it hit me.
just like a friggen bullet.
i love you( .... ) |
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[Dec. 3rd, 2005|01:12 pm] |
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im home. im happy. yes. |
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[Dec. 2nd, 2005|09:16 am] |
okay, im leaving.
goodbye darlings.
im getting on a plane in like 2 hours,
asdfjkl;jasldfkaj.
loveyou.
you can attempt to call my cellphone after 10am FRIDAY.
but im pretty sure its been disconnected. LOLZ.
4144268110
bye. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 1st, 2005|11:40 pm] |
I wish I could be happy with myself.
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[Dec. 1st, 2005|12:46 pm] |
I want to be in my grandmother kitchen right now.
I can almost smell it, see it, feel it, i miss her alot.
I cant wait for christmas, and to be in her house again.
To see my family. Im sort of looking forward to that.
I've changed alot since August, grown up A LOT!
So much has happened, So much will happen.
I have no idea what the future holds for me, so
far its been a long confusing ride.
All I know is when I get off that plane DEREK AND TARAH will be there.
And I will be so happy. Im excited.
I cant wait to see them. To get that old life back.
Although it is going to be a lot different.
Im living in a different town, I have to get a job.
go to school. GROW UP EVEN MORE.
Its going to be hard I think.
But im finally ready to move on with my life.
So.. Lets find out what Ive become, who I am.
Shall We?? |
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[Dec. 1st, 2005|12:33 am] |
i love the fact that im flying into utah on friday
and ryan is flying into utah friday. oh holy geez.
airportsexcuddles... i think so. jealous much?
I just packed alot. ALOT.
everything im taking is in ONE BAG!
I actually GOT my tickets today. So its pretty much SUPER OFFICAL NOW!
SEE YOU AMERICAN KIDS FRIDAY!!
Yes two more sleeps then im on a plane.. erm, planes.
I dont know what is happening once i get back
my mum wants to spend time with me saturday.
and she MIGHT be pickning me up, but she hasnt confirmed this
so i dont know.
Derek and Smelly Tarah arepicking me up to.
SO YEAH. I DONT KNOW!!! I guess they come
we hang out, I see my mum, go to Milwaukee Saturday,
maybe stay the night at Tarahs???
GO SEE EMERY SUNDAY!!!! EXCITING!!!
blah IDK.
Im confused.
alfhdslkfgaslj. |
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[Nov. 30th, 2005|08:01 pm] |
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two more friggen sleeps. lolz. then im spooning with derek and tarah. |
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[Nov. 30th, 2005|01:05 pm] |
I bought new jeans!!
normally I would be so excited but
when i put these jeans on, they felt funny.
so im taking them back!
I cant be bothered getting another pair.
a different pair, I FRIGGEN LIKED THESE TOO MUCH.
hfakldshgklasdjgslk.
pathetic, i am. i know. |
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[Nov. 29th, 2005|09:27 pm] |
do you know what kind of scares me.
when boys act like boys.
sex sex sex blah.
and sometimes i wish i was a boy.
[edit] i really hate when people make plans without asking me first.
friends&family. everyone is ultra excited to see me.
the make these plans that i cant do.
i only have ONE saturday.
i cant spend time with friends and family can i? |
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[Nov. 29th, 2005|10:16 am] |
so the other day i went christmas shopping. i can totally check off..derek, tarah, and dierdre. oh and my parents. and i refuse to buy something for my brother, cause the last thing he said to me was that he hated me and didnt consider me his sister, so should i actually buy him anything? blah, i kind of want to, i dont want to be petty with him anymore, but then again at the same time i am hurt still by what he said. blah, i know i will break down and buy him something, hahaha.
also everyone is getting chocolate. i need to get chocolate frogs for freddy... but yeah, im buying a shit load of chocolate for everyone to try, new zealand, i think, has better chocolate than america. but everyone can fuck off around the caramello's THOSE ARE DIERDRES LOSERS
i dont know what to get my father, i've always had a hard time finding him things.. i want to get him something amazing, he likes to read, i might get him a book on egypt or something, I dont know. haha.
im listening to britney spears. again. cause im amazing. im going to make derek a cd, and tell him that its new zealand hardcore or something, and then he will listen to it, and it will be britney spears, i could see me crying from laughing so hard, and i could see him hitting me alot. hahahaha. it would totally be worth it. hahahahahahahaha. nah, i cant be bothered.
shit i have to pack my clothes, i hate that, im getting rid of most of them. i cant be bothered moving it all over the world, im just going to take back some jeans and shirts and jumpers and shit. hahahaha.
im done rambling. end. |
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[Nov. 28th, 2005|11:15 am] |
countdowns.
4 sleeps until i get on the airplane!
5 sleeps untill i see derek and tarah!
6 sleeps untill im in milwaukee!
7 sleeps untill emery date with tarah, dierdre, and MELISSA!! |
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[Nov. 28th, 2005|12:49 am] |
i find myself pathetically saving something i dont want.
i want space, i want to be free. |
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[Nov. 27th, 2005|01:41 pm] |
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my lines are running down.
im giving up on life.
but not really.
just for today.
im going to cut off all my hair.
and drink nothing but water.
wash away the pain.
i have fifty clothes to solve.
run run, no one will stop me.
no one. |
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[Nov. 26th, 2005|11:22 am] |
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asdfjkl;asdfjkl;asdfjklasdfjklasdfjkl;asdfjkl;asdfkl;asdfjkl;imtalkingtodylan. |
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[Nov. 26th, 2005|10:22 am] |
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| | emery - the secret | ] |
i have that feeling again
i hate this feeling.
the world, everything is speeding past me
and im just sitting here.
music is playing fater, movies are playing faster
and im here, slow, everything has picked up in pace and i havent.
i dont know what to do.
ah. i dislike this.
my heart is beating extremely fast.
i just realised in seven days
im going to wake up and derek and tarah will be sleeping next to me. on the floor of my mum's house. im going to make them macaroni and cheese and mt dew for breakfast. oh, im excited. but im scared.
its really material of me. and i'm rarely material.
and i know there are such more important things going on.
my fathers health, my mum, my family, my friends, people i love.
but all i seem to be thinking about.
and its really pathetic
is, i need to get new jeans. i hope my hair straightener works. i need new foundation. i need a new hoodie. blah blah blah.. this ALWAYS happens before i go back, i have to make surei have everything, i look okay, i dont know.
im pathetic. maybe im just worrying about that stuff, because i can do something about them, unlike my fathers or family's health, or other things i cant do anything about.
blah.
i talked to my friend Nic last night, and basically told him i really liked him, but then, i that. i .. i give up on everything.
seriously. im tired of people. i dont want to like/date anymore. gosh. fuck. except mister george and fred weasley. obviously. speaking of harry potter. MY FATHER FELL ASLEEP DURRING IN. Allie cried her eyes out. I laughed, and Swooned, and I dont know, I kind of wished I haddent read the book, I think thats what ruined it for me.
I was disapointed. I wanted more to be in it, even though it was almost three hours long, I wanted more.
Somebody Please Tell Me What Am I Suppost To Do.
I pretty much am IN LOVE with Emery.
hahahhaha, I like how I change topic so much.
SO Im getting rid of mostly everything.
I will just buy new clothes in america, I cant be bothered taking everything back with me, most of the clothes I have I dont wear, or is now too big for me. So yeah.
I dont know what to take back actually. everything still has those memories attached to HIM
and speaking of him I really am missing him lately. FUCK, I dont want to be.. but I miss our talks, or the way he made me laugh, I miss those first 6 days. I miss when shell grabbed a knife and went to "stab" me, and he freaked out, and we laughed for ever. I miss that, but I DONT miss being used. fuck, i remember it so well, how stupid I was.. I look back on what happened, and see how clearly i was used, and how I was so blinded by loving him I let him use me. fuck, that makes me sick, so I guess I dont miss him. ha.
SO AMERICA IN 6 DAYS. 5 NOT COUNTING TODAY!!
hahahhha, so yeah, i dont know my current feelings at the moment, im excited, lonely, missing people, others make me sick, disapointed, sad, happy.. fuck, hahah. wow. im wonderful.
lets hang out. |
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